Thursday, May 27, 2010

henry takes the cake

Last weekend, we had a gathering for Henry's first year birthday! By far our favorite part was witnessing Henry experiencing the cake! Can't believe he will be 1 year tomorrow!

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Very talkative these days:

my good friend jeanette alexander makes beautiful cakes:

loved it:

proud mommy and daddy:

Thank you to our friends who were able to make the party. We so appreciate you! :)

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

the mullet is gone!

Henry had his first haircut today! I am hoping to be the hair cutter in the future, but I have no idea how to do it. I figured I would let someone else have the first go at it, and it was quite fun!
The before shot-with mullet:
loving the car:
shot of the long locks:
I read that you could prep your baby by saying trim or snip instead of cut. Let's be real here folks, Henry's hair is being chopped!
Looking more like a little boy!We came home and played. Henry and I went to get the mail. I looked back and our two INDOOR cats were just prancing right out the door!! Grabbing hissing Buddy, while Henry stood by a tree, I threw him back to the house. Sneaky Moose was already under the neighbors bushes (which he should know that neighbor has 3 big dogs!). Henry and I raced in the house to get the cat treats. We finally lured Moose back in. Shew! Henry is napping and I might too. Enough adventure for me today.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

a month ago today

A month ago today, we lost our sister. Grieving is a crazy process, a roller coaster really. Some days it feels surreal and others too real. My good friend Minda (who also lost her brother tragically) said it well, you might move on, but you don't really heal. I can see that to be the case, for sure.

One thing is for sure, we think about Heidi everyday. We miss her, we love her, we long to talk to her. I think the hardest part is thinking about all the years on Earth that we have without her. She is fine. She is probably having a good ole time fist bumping Jesus. But us - our hearts are sad to think we are here with the memory of her remaining.

I don't know what people do without hope in the Lord. I still can't imagine this being "it." Everyday, I have to remind myself about the hope in the future-beyond this life. It is freeing and a crazy reality to be reminded that this life is not all that there is to it. Thank goodness.

Heidi, again, we are thinking of you this morning. Give Jesus some pounds for us please. Love.

Friday, May 21, 2010

Almost a Year

Henry is almost a whole year old! Here are some pictures that mark some milestones in his life. We are blessed.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010


I am not a fan of transitions. I've always said that I don't mind change, I just don't like transitions. So, this post (and ones to come) are going to be a little choppy, I suppose. Pete and I were talking about keeping blogging tonight and I shared how I wasn't ready to post anything new. I don't want to make posts about Heidi seem distant because she is at the forefront of my mind everyday. Plus, I wasn't sure how to transition from that to new ones. But, he shared his wisdom about how life isn't necessarily smooth and how you've got the good with the bad and things come unexpectedly, etc. So, you can expect this blog to be without transitions for awhile, I guess. I don't like them anyway.

Although our hearts have been sad the last two weeks, I did read this verse today "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit - Ps. 34:18" He certainly helps our spirits by the joy that this guy brings:

A couple weeks away from turning 1 he is:
-starting to enjoy sitting looking at books by himself. Although he gets frustrated if the books don't open easy. He got Pete's good looks and my lack of patience.
-seeming to talk a lot (just sounds, but to him they are important conversations)
-starting to test some boundaries. let's just say, he knows what the word "no" means.
-really wishing to walk. he stands all the time and scoots along all furniture.
-emptying the Tupperware cupboard at least five times a day.
-understanding a lot more. got upset at pete and i on sat. when we asked if he wanted to go on a walk. when we got into the car (to drive to a park to walk) he was not happy. in his mind, we had said walk, and he was ready!

We thank God for Henry everyday for the joy and let's be honest, the distraction, that Henry brings.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

dear aunt heidi

Dear Aunt Heidi,
I didn't know you so long-11 short months. But, when I did get to see you, you always made me feel good with your smile.

The way my mom and dad feel about you-I am sure that you will always be a part of my life somehow. And it IS pretty cool that my name starts with an H too. :) That will be special always.

The last thing you saw me do was watch a video my mom sent with me playing with my yellow car. You thought it was funny how I got distracted by the rug for a moment.

Can't wait to see you someday again face to face, and then I will show you ALL my tricks.
Love always,

Saturday, May 1, 2010

future tense

I don't even know how to begin putting down the thoughts that have been swirling in my head since 9:00 am last Sunday. The moment in time when my life changed, faith started stretching, emotions were tapped, world seemed to fall apart, peace started to stir, and the news began to rip at my heart that my beloved sister (in law) and friend was taken from this world sooner than we would have ever ever imagined.
Right now I am not loving using the past tense. It is an awkward transition to use the two letters "ed" referring to a person that you talked with just days ago. Not long ago, we were planning future stuff like a nephew's birthday party.
As devastating as this is, I have to remember that as believers in Jesus and the hope of being reunitd someday, we can still dream about the future. I still have hope that I will get to see Heidi again and therefore feel blessed to be able to continue to use future tense like we WILL be able to laugh and hug again.
I miss her so much already-it doesn't seem real. Yet, at the same time realization is what makes my heart bowling ball heavy.
Heidi, I love and miss you. You impacted my life forever.